Just two weeks after their miscarriage, John Legend dedicates his BMA performance to his wife, Chrissy Teigen.

On October 14th, the Billboard Music Awards were held in Los Angeles after being postponed six months during quarantine. Many memorable things happened that night such as the controversy behind why Addison Rae accepted Harry Styles’ award on his behalf or Post Malone’s big performances, but one moment grabbed the attention and heart strings of every viewer in America- John Legend song dedication.

Just two weeks ago, the singer and his model wife, Chrissy Teigen, announced to the world that they had miscarried their third child, Jack.

In the crushing instagram post, Teigen wrote, “We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough.”

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We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough. . . We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital.  But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack.  So he will always be Jack to us.  Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever. . . To our Jack – I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive.  We will always love you. . . Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers.  We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you. . . We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience.  But everyday can’t be full of sunshine.  On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.

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On the night of the Billboard Music Awards, John Legend wanted to show his wife his unwavering love and support with a song dedicated to her. On a dark stage, with only a piano to accompany his vocals, Legend performed his song, ‘Never Break.’ He had written the song for Chrissy Teigen and opened with ‘This is for Chrissy,’ and fans immediately knew why the intimate moment held so much weight. Try watching it without falling apart: 

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This is for Chrissy. I love and cherish you and our family so much. We’ve experienced the highest highs and lowest lows together. Watching you carry our children has been so moving and humbling. I’m in awe of the strength you’ve shown through the most challenging moments. What an awesome gift it is to be able to bring life into the world. We’ve experienced the miracle, the power and joy of this gift, and now we’ve deeply felt its inherent fragility. I wrote this song because I have faith that as long as we walk this earth, we will hold each other’s hands through every tear, through every up and down, through every test. We promised each other this on our wedding day seven years ago, and every challenge we’ve faced has made that promise more powerful, more resilient. Our love will remain. We will never break. Thank you to everyone who has been sending us prayers and well wishes, flowers, cards, words of comfort and empathy. We feel and appreciate your love and support more than you know. More than anything, we’ve heard so many stories about how so many other families have experienced this pain, often suffering in silence. It’s a club no one wants to be a part of, but it’s comforting to know we’re not alone. I’m sure Chrissy will have much more to say about this when she’s ready. But just know we’re grateful and we’re sending love to all of you and your families.

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It caught the attention of everyone watching as their miscarriage had been extremely public. The couple, Teigen in particular, have been very open about their struggles to get pregnant, and their trials with IVF. When Chrissy announced that she was pregnant with her third child, it was a joyous event that was met with supportive fans coming to celebrate.

While it was not confirmed, it is assumed that Teigen and Legend were pregnant for the first time ever without IVF, which is why the pregnancy was unexpected and a miracle for the couple. After multiple failed pregnancy tests, Teigen assumed she was not pregnant until she had a visit with her doctor following a surgery this Summer. With over 32 million instagram followers, everything Chrissy shares becomes big news shared with the world, which is why the home chef updated her supportive fans on the traumatic event after days of tests and transfusions. 

Twitter is Emotional

John Legend’s heart-felt performance melted the hearts of everyone watching the Billboard awards. Twitter users who have been closely following the couple’s struggle with fertility knew this performance meant a lot, especially for those who have also suffered miscarriages. As always, Twitter was quick to comment on the Legend’s act of love and well…we are in tears over here. 

Don’t mind us as we re-watch the video 1000 more times.

We are emotional after this and need some time to recoup.

WE ARE ALL CRYING, Nicholas.

And yes, we are feeling just like this photo. We need some tissues over here!

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Still not crying? Legend has followed up the performance by explaining why the song was named, ‘Never Break.’ In a short but sweet tweet, Legend said, “Our love will remain. We will never break.” Just read how sweet and endearing this is:

The Reality

According to the NHS, 1 in 8 pregnancies will result in a miscarriage. Chrissy Teigen and her husband are not the only people to experience this devastating loss, but are one of the very few public figures who choose to be open about the pain and the aftermath that follows miscarriage.

When Teigen filled the world in on their loss, other women were encouraged to come forward about their miscarriages that were once too taboo to tell people about.

October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, so while John Legend dedicated the song to his wife, those who have miscarried also felt seen and supported by the song.

Chrissy has been radio silent following the news of the miscarriage two weeks ago, so while we are not keeping up with her Twitter reactions anymore, we assume this performance offered some light in a very dim time for her and her family.