Zendaya is looking at her past and reflecting on her time in the spotlight, especially her acting career.
In an interview with British Vogue, the Challengers star mentioned “I don’t know how much of a choice I had.” She went on to mention for the May profile saying, “I have complicated feelings about kids and fame and being in the public eye, or being a child actor.”
Zendaya was known for her role in the Disney series Shake It Up before moving on to big blockbuster titles like Spider-Man: Homecoming.
The star also went on to mention, “We’ve seen a lot of cases of it being detrimental,” she continued. “I think only now, as an adult, am I starting to go, Oh, okay, wait a minute: I’ve only ever done what I’ve known, and this is all I’ve known.”
The Dune actress also opened up to the publication saying she feels as if she’s “almost going through my angsty teenager phase now, because I didn’t really have the time to do it before.”
She also went on to note, “I felt like I was thrust into a very adult position: I was becoming the breadwinner of my family very early, and there was a lot of role-reversal happening, and just kind of becoming grown, really.”
Opening up to Vogue, the star mentioned that she felt like she needed to be “this perfect being, and be everything that everyone needs me to be, and live up to all these expectations.”
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The Euphoria star has seen massive success and has even had a packed schedule when it comes to projects as of late.
“Now, when I have these moments in my career — like, my first time leading a film that’s actually going to be in a theater — I feel like I shrink, and I can’t enjoy all the things that are happening to me,“ she said. “I’m very tense, and I think that I carry that from being a kid and never really having an opportunity to just try s—.”
“And I wish I went to school,” the star added.
Opening up about her recent film, Zendaya plays Tashi, a tennis player in her early 30s.
“I’m always in a high school somewhere.” She also noted, “And, mind you, I never went to high school.”
